Loud quiet

I have noticed lately how loud the world is becoming.  Even on a quiet day there is noise.  Cell phones buzzing and dinging for our attention, fitbits and Apple watches vibrating to walk more or check that instant message.

Reminders going off on iPads and Alexa.  All first world problems.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It is all part of the way we live now.  I am just as guilty.  I check my iPhone for emails and messages, posting photos on my facebook and instagram.  Setting alarms and reminders.

Then, something happens and makes you step back and want to actually enjoy all the good quiet that you are missing out on.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Most of us, me included, work ninety to nothing to notch out a living, reach the next level, just one more thing to do and I will sit down and relax.

But do we really relax?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It is so easy to get wrapped up in our business, our to-do list, being involved in the community.   That is all well and good, however, a little down time is necessary.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have to admit, that I am wound a little tight.  I do not “sit” well.

I have to be doing something. When I feel myself getting a little overwhelmed, anxious or not being able to manage things out of my control.  I seek out nature.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Taking a long walk, I usually find things that fascinate me.  There is so many wonderful delights to behold if we just take the time to notice them.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There is a whole other world that exists outside.  A simple, beautiful world.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It just goes on being incredible each day, whether we notice it or not.

I was raised to notice and give thanks for all that nature has to offer.  I married a extremely busy rancher/broker who will always pauses for a beautiful sunset

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Getting away from the buzzing of the everyday life yields good memories.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A bonfire at night with the full moon shining brightly.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Watching a passing thunderstorm and being enchanted by the delicate light afterward.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

One of our very favorite things to do is going to the river.  Letting our dogs swim and fetch sticks, letting them explore the riverbanks, fields and woods.

Kayaking with the grandkids is the greatest.  Seeing things through their eyes gives me a new splendor.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It is a shame that many people just sit in their homes with loud quiet all around.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Not knowing that if they just open a window and hear a bird call, feel the breeze, smell the rain their mood might switch to a more relaxed state of mind.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If I take my own advice, I will disconnect from the first world problems, just for a while each day.  Go outside and feel the earth under my feet, the breeze on my face, watch the clouds float by.

And give thanks for the wonders of the world.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Go hold the moon in your hand, it is an astonishing feeling.

The loud quiet can wait.

Until next time,

much love,

Cindy

 

Psalm 95:4-5

 

 

 

 

 

Sixty

My 60th birthday is coming up rapidly.

I remember when my grandmother turned 60. I thought she was so old! Even though she was a very vibrant red head with red lipstick and sassy attitude.

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t seems like I just turned around, and I am hitting 60.

I think it is the number that scares me more than the actual event. I definitely do not feel 60.

My Mom did not start her clothing business until she was 58 and her business grew even larger in her 60’s and 70’s.

If my Mom was still with us, she would tell me age is just a number. That you really don’t start living your authentic life until you reach 60. You know enough to see pass drama, pretentiousness and perfidious. To see the real beauty that abounds. She taught me to live in grace, equality and be respectable. To hold tight to the ones you love, but not take any absurdity from anyone.

My Dad has taught me to be brave, courageous, not to be knocked down and keep swinging. To measure twice and cut once. To have a firm handshake and to look people in the eye. That I am capable to do anything I set my mind to. After mom passed away, he found out he had cancer and is still battling it today at almost 86. But he is a fighter, a genius, constantly learning something every day. Dad took up painting a couple of years ago and is remarkable! He paintings are covenant. He still teaches me daily how to live honorable, fight for my principles and to feed the birds.

My life has had lots of ups and downs. Fearful, discouraged, heartbroken and hesitate at times. However, I have more to be thankful for and I am truly blessed.

My brother and sister have been my life line through out my life. My sister in law, Wendy keeps us all grounded. I love her dearly.

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They understand me without saying a word.

I am a proud Aunt of a Marine.  This young man is what makes me proud of our country.  I do not fear our future because of young men and women like Sam.

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I really didn’t start living my true authentic life until I married my husband Steve. He has let me be me. He gets me.

He thinks I look best in jeans, boots covered in cow manure, no makeup or up to my elbows in clay while throwing at the pottery wheel. Steve is truly a God send. It hasn’t always been fun and games, but we have a deep love for each other that no one can come between.

 

 

 

 

Steve has taught me how to work smart, be myself, not let what other think bother me. That I don’t have to be fearful. I love his love for me, the kids, our animals and our families.

 

 

 

Our kids, Misty and David (my step kids, their mom so graciously shares them with me since they were very young), and their spouses, are the most treasured people in my life. They let me be a mom. Something I didn’t think I would be. They have brought me so much happiness, love and goofiness to last a life time. They have given us the most loved grandchildren.

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I think this is what I love most about being 60. My family. Being in a place to enjoy all of them. My heart swells thinking of all of them.

My friends have been with me through thick and thin. I have the best friends in the world! Some I might not see for years, but we pick right back up where we left off. The friends I see daily are like my own shadow. They know my every move, my thoughts and my sarcasm.

This is a new chapter in my life, something I was kind of dreading. But I am now looking forward to what is in store for me.

I have strong women that I have followed to be in this place and have younger people that I need to set an example for.

So, I think I am really going to enjoy my “older” years. I live in the greatest country on earth, live in the best state ever, Texas (!), have my own pottery business, The best husband ever to share our dreams with.  I am surrounded by love, here on earth and from above.

60’s are going to be awesome!

Until next time,

Much love,

Cindy

Philippians 4:13

Support the troops! Keep Sam in your prayers!

A fresh taste

My mood a few days back.

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I was getting bombarded with all kinds of things.  Things that may seem small to some, more than they could have handled to others.  I could not get my bearings set, a good nights sleep or keep my heart from racing.  We all get bad news, sad news or even news that can make us mad.

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I just wished to lie down and do nothing.  Just step away from what was constantly circling my head.

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But, I couldn’t and didn’t want to do that.  That is not in my nature.  I am a figure it out, make a plan and get on with it kind of person.

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One of the ways that I can calm myself is to be outside. I look to nature for signs that give tenderness, understanding and joy.  Listening to the silence, the birds, my grandkids laughter, my husband calling the cows in.

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You know the old cliche..”It is the simple things”.  Well, that is my mantra.

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Little things add up to big things.  A day full of little, wonderful surprises add up to a great day.  Even in the midst of this season of unwanted turmoil or situations, if I find the tiniest thing to smile about, my day instantly gets brighter.

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We only get one chance to get it right while we are here on earth.  I can’t change what life hands me sometimes, as much as I want to, I can’t.

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But what I can change, is my attitude and my manner in how I handle the circumstances.

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I believe in faith, hope, everlasting love.   I believe we can handle what is handed to us with the grace of God, a higher power and miracles.

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We are all on a journey.  Sometimes it is rocky, slow going and what seems like never-ending.  Sometimes it is smooth sailing, free-flowing and beautiful.

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The beauty provided to me doesn’t change whether I am melancholic or broody, the stars are always there, the sun will shine again and I will see a rainbow, the blue birds and a newborn calf.  Life and her unwavering abundance doesn’t stop showing up because I don’t.  It is up to me to fall back into the rhythm of an ongoing existence.

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Another quote that I like is “Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day”.   That is what I strive for.  I do my best to see the bright side of life.  I may be the foolish one, the dreamer, whatever.  But I choose to see that good things are coming.  Maybe not in my life here on earth, but there will be a day when everyday is joyous.

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Until that day,  I will drink my coffee with our cows,

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set aside a few moments to relax and regroup,

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Eat good food, have a fresh taste,

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watch the blue birds and love unconditionally.

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“Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking.” Marcus Aurelius

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Until next time, much love and smooth sailing!

xoxo

Cindy

John 14:18

 

It is in the details.

Details, details, details.  10897816_806567316056190_4532931090003681074_n

It is easier to see the big picture.  Only glancing momentarily, letting it skim your thoughts and moving on.  It is like looking out an airplane window.  You can see the patchwork fields, big cities and flowing rivers.  But, as you get closer to landing, you can focus on people, cars, cows, boats, etc.  Everything starts to breathe and come alive.

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Life is kind of like that.  We can choose to skim on by.  See everything and everyone as a whole.  To be disconnected, a little self-centered and oblivious.  Creating a wall around us, even if unintentional.   Life can be hard, heart breaking and even unfair. We may not even care about the details of our lives, just living for the whole picture.

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We wonder if our hearts have turned to stone.  Why even try to sort out details, just live on the edge in a fuzzy haze and misguided understanding.   But do you really think we are supposed to live like that? I don’t think so..

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I think we are born to thrive!  To pay attention to the details, work on the details and even fix broken details.   Like the old windmill on our place, until the details of the gears are worked out, it will not turn, will not produce and not bring joy to those around.  Much like ourselves..we may get messy, dirty, even angry and worn out.  But keeping up and tending to the details, we will turn, we will produce and we will bring joy to those around.

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Sometimes, we have to retreat to find the details that need working on, being less exposed to the particulars and technicalities.  It is a good thing to pay attention to what needs fixing.  Tinkering with the gears,  asking for help, researching, meditating, praying, trying new things, new routines and opening closed doors.

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When we start paying attention to the details, they become more focused upon, more meaningful.  We see the handiwork that is hidden.  We become less obsessed with the dull and meaningless.  We start to take joy in the inner workings, the fine lines and delicate balances. Big stuff loses its shine and glory.  Small victories and accomplishments are thrilling and significant.

 

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The more attention we pay to details, gears, life, family, loved ones, friends, the more we get out of life.  It is easy to paint the world with one big paint brush and call it good. To think we owe no one nothing, being calloused and unsparing only hurts ourselves in the long run.  Hunting out details, glimmers of hope, feelings of grace, investing in relationships, long friendships, partnerships and most importantly, love…is all worth the journey.

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It is a big world out there.  It can be hurtful, prideful and hateful, but need each other.  Whether we all agree or not.  We are God’s handiwork, the details and the gears.  We can’t thrive without each other support and connections.  We don’t have to go it alone on one big playing field.  Listen closely to what your details are telling you.  It is the small things that make up the big things. It is the small moments, the shared loved, the tender mercies and grace that contributes to our short time on earth.  I know that I want to love and be loved, enjoy the small wonders and overlooked sentiments that are offered to us daily.

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Life is in the details.  Go find it.

Much love to all!

Until next time, xoxo

Cindy

Matthew 13:32