A fresh taste

My mood a few days back.

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I was getting bombarded with all kinds of things.  Things that may seem small to some, more than they could have handled to others.  I could not get my bearings set, a good nights sleep or keep my heart from racing.  We all get bad news, sad news or even news that can make us mad.

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I just wished to lie down and do nothing.  Just step away from what was constantly circling my head.

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But, I couldn’t and didn’t want to do that.  That is not in my nature.  I am a figure it out, make a plan and get on with it kind of person.

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One of the ways that I can calm myself is to be outside. I look to nature for signs that give tenderness, understanding and joy.  Listening to the silence, the birds, my grandkids laughter, my husband calling the cows in.

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You know the old cliche..”It is the simple things”.  Well, that is my mantra.

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Little things add up to big things.  A day full of little, wonderful surprises add up to a great day.  Even in the midst of this season of unwanted turmoil or situations, if I find the tiniest thing to smile about, my day instantly gets brighter.

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We only get one chance to get it right while we are here on earth.  I can’t change what life hands me sometimes, as much as I want to, I can’t.

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But what I can change, is my attitude and my manner in how I handle the circumstances.

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I believe in faith, hope, everlasting love.   I believe we can handle what is handed to us with the grace of God, a higher power and miracles.

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We are all on a journey.  Sometimes it is rocky, slow going and what seems like never-ending.  Sometimes it is smooth sailing, free-flowing and beautiful.

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The beauty provided to me doesn’t change whether I am melancholic or broody, the stars are always there, the sun will shine again and I will see a rainbow, the blue birds and a newborn calf.  Life and her unwavering abundance doesn’t stop showing up because I don’t.  It is up to me to fall back into the rhythm of an ongoing existence.

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Another quote that I like is “Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day”.   That is what I strive for.  I do my best to see the bright side of life.  I may be the foolish one, the dreamer, whatever.  But I choose to see that good things are coming.  Maybe not in my life here on earth, but there will be a day when everyday is joyous.

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Until that day,  I will drink my coffee with our cows,

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set aside a few moments to relax and regroup,

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Eat good food, have a fresh taste,

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watch the blue birds and love unconditionally.

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“Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking.” Marcus Aurelius

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Until next time, much love and smooth sailing!

xoxo

Cindy

John 14:18

 

It is in the details.

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It is easier to see the big picture.  Only glancing momentarily, letting it skim your thoughts and moving on.  It is like looking out an airplane window.  You can see the patchwork fields, big cities and flowing rivers.  But, as you get closer to landing, you can focus on people, cars, cows, boats, etc.  Everything starts to breathe and come alive.

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Life is kind of like that.  We can choose to skim on by.  See everything and everyone as a whole.  To be disconnected, a little self-centered and oblivious.  Creating a wall around us, even if unintentional.   Life can be hard, heart breaking and even unfair. We may not even care about the details of our lives, just living for the whole picture.

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We wonder if our hearts have turned to stone.  Why even try to sort out details, just live on the edge in a fuzzy haze and misguided understanding.   But do you really think we are supposed to live like that? I don’t think so..

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I think we are born to thrive!  To pay attention to the details, work on the details and even fix broken details.   Like the old windmill on our place, until the details of the gears are worked out, it will not turn, will not produce and not bring joy to those around.  Much like ourselves..we may get messy, dirty, even angry and worn out.  But keeping up and tending to the details, we will turn, we will produce and we will bring joy to those around.

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Sometimes, we have to retreat to find the details that need working on, being less exposed to the particulars and technicalities.  It is a good thing to pay attention to what needs fixing.  Tinkering with the gears,  asking for help, researching, meditating, praying, trying new things, new routines and opening closed doors.

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When we start paying attention to the details, they become more focused upon, more meaningful.  We see the handiwork that is hidden.  We become less obsessed with the dull and meaningless.  We start to take joy in the inner workings, the fine lines and delicate balances. Big stuff loses its shine and glory.  Small victories and accomplishments are thrilling and significant.

 

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The more attention we pay to details, gears, life, family, loved ones, friends, the more we get out of life.  It is easy to paint the world with one big paint brush and call it good. To think we owe no one nothing, being calloused and unsparing only hurts ourselves in the long run.  Hunting out details, glimmers of hope, feelings of grace, investing in relationships, long friendships, partnerships and most importantly, love…is all worth the journey.

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It is a big world out there.  It can be hurtful, prideful and hateful, but need each other.  Whether we all agree or not.  We are God’s handiwork, the details and the gears.  We can’t thrive without each other support and connections.  We don’t have to go it alone on one big playing field.  Listen closely to what your details are telling you.  It is the small things that make up the big things. It is the small moments, the shared loved, the tender mercies and grace that contributes to our short time on earth.  I know that I want to love and be loved, enjoy the small wonders and overlooked sentiments that are offered to us daily.

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Life is in the details.  Go find it.

Much love to all!

Until next time, xoxo

Cindy

Matthew 13:32

 

 

 

 

Pondering and reflections

Happy New Year everyone!

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I took the past holiday season to think about what I wanted my life to look like. Where I wanted to go, what I wanted to create and how I wanted to lead my life.

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I have to do my own soul searching, I have to make myself become quiet, I have to ask questions and seek inspiration.

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I am older and wiser.  I want the rest of my life to be lived with intentions and grace.

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First and foremost, I am more connected to God.  I have been a firm believer in God most of my life and have depended on Him on so many levels. I have seen miracles, had promises delivered, prayers answered and some not answered.  The ones that were not answered, lessons were learned.  I am being more grateful and thankful for all the blessing that I do have.  I do not take one thing or one person in my life for granted.

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Secondly, I am being myself.  I do not require fancy, fictitious or ungenuine.  I love the simple life.  I love to cook dinner, sit on the porch at sunset, take a walk in the woods or watch a good movie on TV. I need my family, their laughter, jokes and love. I need my friends.  I would not be where I am without them. I need my dog, Tess and her ever present ball.

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Third, I am excited about my pottery business.  I am getting lots of sales, orders and great reviews. This makes me tremendously happy.  It is something that I have always wanted to do, and now I have the space and time I need to make this dream come true.

I am not professionally trained, nor do I have all the equipment of a big studio. Some may see it as a hobby or something to occupy my time, but it is not.  It is my profession.  I can look people in the eye and say that I am an artist and be proud of that fact.  My creations are wonky, imperfect and whimsical. Just the way I like it.

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I have also come to realize that this city born and raised girl is a rancher. I love raising cattle!  I love the fact that they all have names and their own personalities. I love that we take such good care of them and provide the best.  Never in my wildest dreams as a child, did I think I would be knee deep in muck, or freezing rain or 100 plus degree heat, feeding huge animals that depend on us daily.  It is truly the best job ever.  (Not many vacations, but just look at this face!)

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I have concluded that people need each other.  That we should be kind to each other and not take others for granted.  To do our best, think before we speak, to respect each other’s opinions and beliefs. But to also fight for our convictions with honor and dignity.

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During the last few weeks of my pondering and reflection,  I have learned that if I discussed my fears and concerns, that does not make me weak.  I have learned that if I am quiet, I am not being withdrawn.  I have learned that the people who truly love you, will always love you.

I am not the same this year as I was last year.  I am a better version of me.  I am trusting in God to lead the way.  I am the salt and the light of the world.

I have this quote written down forever and  I still refer to it often.  At this new year, it is so fitting:

“Don’t ever mistake my silence for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance and my kindness for weakness.”

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“Be yourself, everyone else is taken.” Oscar Wilde

xoxo,

Cindy

Isaiah 40:31

 

These times

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“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light” Steve Kloves

 

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I am not really sure what this blog is going to be about.  I have ideas and thoughts running through my mind.  I am not sure how I am supposed to behave and think right now.

I was raised to be kind to everyone and everything.  To not be racist, judgmental or bias. I truly believe that is the only way to live.  I can not judge anyone, it isn’t my job.

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My job is to see everyone as an equal.

But sometimes it is hard.  It doesn’t help that we have 24/7 media coverage of every little thing that is drummed into our head and tries to make it into our hearts.  People from all sides yelling.   I get it, with all the social media, one has to yell to be heard over all the other clammer.

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There are bad people and I know there is evil in the world.   I am fully aware of it.  I have gotten upset with horrible events in the world. It is enough to set me into a tailspin.

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Who is right and who is wrong?  I think we all like being a part of a group that have our thoughts and beliefs.  It is comforting to be with peers that get your ideas. We feel safe. But happens with you are not in 100% agreement? Do we just go along to get along?  Do we stuff our own feelings just to fit in? Do we take a chance and offend someone? We have to dare to stand on our own two feet and face the fear of being a little alone in our beliefs, whether you are left, right, democrats, republican, gay, straight, black or white.

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These times are trying, they are hard.  It can be unnerving to keep an open heart.   I worry sometimes that I am the one that doesn’t get it.  That I should be outraged, that I live in a bubble and not caring what is happening.  But then I think back about what my Mom would have said.  “Take your blinders off and see the good in the world”.

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There is a deafening strife and struggle right now.  It can’t be ignored and it may get loud and unsettling.  But as history as played out, good usually wins, love always wins.

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What I believe in is loving and taking care of our families, friends, neighbors and even strangers.  I believe that kindness starts with a ripple.  Just holding the door for someone, a hello as you pass someone in the hallway, a small conversation with someone standing beside you.  A compliment, a smile, a handshake. An acknowledgment of someone goes along way.

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As Maya Angelou stated “I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

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This is something that I have to remind myself of daily.

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It is like the old saying, is your cup half full or half empty? Do you just see the evil or do you see any of the good?

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Today, as in the past, I choose to see my cup as half full.  The mass majority of people are good and want what is best for their family, friends and country.  They work hard to do the right thing, are law-abiding, follow the golden rule and just get on with doing the best they can. Living their lives to the fullest, grabbing all the happiness they can and just plain  loving life.

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Agree or disagree, this is my belief.  Everyone is entitle to their own way of thinking and behaving.  That is what our great nation was founded on. For me, I will continue to strive to be happy and fulfilled.   To love my family, friends, neighbor, our country and the animals that are entrusted to me.   To trust that God will bless us and keep us.

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I am so very blessed with friends and family who see me as an equal,  just as I see them.

If you are still with me and understand my rambling, thank you. I am not a writer, just a girl with a heavy heart who does have an opinion.

Take good care,

xoxox

Cindy

John 13:34