Pondering and reflections

Happy New Year everyone!

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I took the past holiday season to think about what I wanted my life to look like. Where I wanted to go, what I wanted to create and how I wanted to lead my life.

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I have to do my own soul searching, I have to make myself become quiet, I have to ask questions and seek inspiration.

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I am older and wiser.  I want the rest of my life to be lived with intentions and grace.

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First and foremost, I am more connected to God.  I have been a firm believer in God most of my life and have depended on Him on so many levels. I have seen miracles, had promises delivered, prayers answered and some not answered.  The ones that were not answered, lessons were learned.  I am being more grateful and thankful for all the blessing that I do have.  I do not take one thing or one person in my life for granted.

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Secondly, I am being myself.  I do not require fancy, fictitious or ungenuine.  I love the simple life.  I love to cook dinner, sit on the porch at sunset, take a walk in the woods or watch a good movie on TV. I need my family, their laughter, jokes and love. I need my friends.  I would not be where I am without them. I need my dog, Tess and her ever present ball.

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Third, I am excited about my pottery business.  I am getting lots of sales, orders and great reviews. This makes me tremendously happy.  It is something that I have always wanted to do, and now I have the space and time I need to make this dream come true.

I am not professionally trained, nor do I have all the equipment of a big studio. Some may see it as a hobby or something to occupy my time, but it is not.  It is my profession.  I can look people in the eye and say that I am an artist and be proud of that fact.  My creations are wonky, imperfect and whimsical. Just the way I like it.

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I have also come to realize that this city born and raised girl is a rancher. I love raising cattle!  I love the fact that they all have names and their own personalities. I love that we take such good care of them and provide the best.  Never in my wildest dreams as a child, did I think I would be knee deep in muck, or freezing rain or 100 plus degree heat, feeding huge animals that depend on us daily.  It is truly the best job ever.  (Not many vacations, but just look at this face!)

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I have concluded that people need each other.  That we should be kind to each other and not take others for granted.  To do our best, think before we speak, to respect each other’s opinions and beliefs. But to also fight for our convictions with honor and dignity.

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During the last few weeks of my pondering and reflection,  I have learned that if I discussed my fears and concerns, that does not make me weak.  I have learned that if I am quiet, I am not being withdrawn.  I have learned that the people who truly love you, will always love you.

I am not the same this year as I was last year.  I am a better version of me.  I am trusting in God to lead the way.  I am the salt and the light of the world.

I have this quote written down forever and  I still refer to it often.  At this new year, it is so fitting:

“Don’t ever mistake my silence for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance and my kindness for weakness.”

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“Be yourself, everyone else is taken.” Oscar Wilde

xoxo,

Cindy

Isaiah 40:31

 

As the year closes…

 

 

I want to introduce you to our first grand daughter, Caroline Elizabeth!

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Caroline was born November, 16th.  She is the sweetest little thing.  All cuddly and warm! She is going to rule the roost and make her brother and boy cousins bow down to her!  I can’t wait to see what wonderful things she does.

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Other great news, my dad finished his chemo and is on the mend.  He has battled cancer before and beat it.  I am confident that he will do so again.

Dad came down and participated with me in the Harvest Festival of Arts in October.  He made and sold most of his very unique lamps and clocks!  It was very special to me to have him here.

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As this year comes to an end, I am grateful for all the lessons, blessings, hard knocks, love, jubilations and tribulations that came my way.

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I have learned that it is best, for me, to stay on an even keel.  To be in the present and see things through other eyes every once in awhile.

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I (try) to practice self control and awareness.  I (try) to be patient and kind to everyone.  I (try) to give the benefit of the doubt, and I (try) to love without haste or judgement.

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But what it all boils down to, is LOVE, without haste or judgement.  We are all capable of it.  Even if you have had hard knocks, resentment or mistreatment. I have, and I still love.  It is just part of my fabric, roots that go way back has taught me to believe the good in people.  Even the ones that are bad, there is good in them somewhere!

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My grand kids have taught me a lot about love, fun and being excited about life.  They see things without animosity and judgement.  They see a stick and get excited. It becomes a sword, a digging tool, a toy for my dog to fetch.  So many things are imaginable to them.

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They live for their goals and work hard to achieve them.  Not for adding to their 401K or climbing the corporate ladder, (that will come later) but it is what they love.  Willing to work hard because it is fun and enjoyable.  The fight for their team and shake hands with their opponents, win or lose.

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I know I have learned from this simple attitude.  I have become more excited by life.  If there is an obstacle or unexpected detour, I make it my sword, I battle on with an open mind and heart.  It is tough sometimes, but when I see things though different eyes, it is all good.  Win or lose.

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So swing high! Become excited about the little things in life that we take for granted.  See others at their best, be good to yourself, rest, play, imagine, talk, be quiet and still or run as fast as you can.

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Life is short and we only get one shot.  Do whatever brings you joy!  Even if it is for a moment.

Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year to you all!

Much love,

Cindy

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable…think about such things.  Philippians 4:8

 

 

These times

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“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light” Steve Kloves

 

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I am not really sure what this blog is going to be about.  I have ideas and thoughts running through my mind.  I am not sure how I am supposed to behave and think right now.

I was raised to be kind to everyone and everything.  To not be racist, judgmental or bias. I truly believe that is the only way to live.  I can not judge anyone, it isn’t my job.

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My job is to see everyone as an equal.

But sometimes it is hard.  It doesn’t help that we have 24/7 media coverage of every little thing that is drummed into our head and tries to make it into our hearts.  People from all sides yelling.   I get it, with all the social media, one has to yell to be heard over all the other clammer.

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There are bad people and I know there is evil in the world.   I am fully aware of it.  I have gotten upset with horrible events in the world. It is enough to set me into a tailspin.

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Who is right and who is wrong?  I think we all like being a part of a group that have our thoughts and beliefs.  It is comforting to be with peers that get your ideas. We feel safe. But happens with you are not in 100% agreement? Do we just go along to get along?  Do we stuff our own feelings just to fit in? Do we take a chance and offend someone? We have to dare to stand on our own two feet and face the fear of being a little alone in our beliefs, whether you are left, right, democrats, republican, gay, straight, black or white.

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These times are trying, they are hard.  It can be unnerving to keep an open heart.   I worry sometimes that I am the one that doesn’t get it.  That I should be outraged, that I live in a bubble and not caring what is happening.  But then I think back about what my Mom would have said.  “Take your blinders off and see the good in the world”.

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There is a deafening strife and struggle right now.  It can’t be ignored and it may get loud and unsettling.  But as history as played out, good usually wins, love always wins.

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What I believe in is loving and taking care of our families, friends, neighbors and even strangers.  I believe that kindness starts with a ripple.  Just holding the door for someone, a hello as you pass someone in the hallway, a small conversation with someone standing beside you.  A compliment, a smile, a handshake. An acknowledgment of someone goes along way.

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As Maya Angelou stated “I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

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This is something that I have to remind myself of daily.

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It is like the old saying, is your cup half full or half empty? Do you just see the evil or do you see any of the good?

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Today, as in the past, I choose to see my cup as half full.  The mass majority of people are good and want what is best for their family, friends and country.  They work hard to do the right thing, are law-abiding, follow the golden rule and just get on with doing the best they can. Living their lives to the fullest, grabbing all the happiness they can and just plain  loving life.

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Agree or disagree, this is my belief.  Everyone is entitle to their own way of thinking and behaving.  That is what our great nation was founded on. For me, I will continue to strive to be happy and fulfilled.   To love my family, friends, neighbor, our country and the animals that are entrusted to me.   To trust that God will bless us and keep us.

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I am so very blessed with friends and family who see me as an equal,  just as I see them.

If you are still with me and understand my rambling, thank you. I am not a writer, just a girl with a heavy heart who does have an opinion.

Take good care,

xoxox

Cindy

John 13:34

 

 

 

Individualism

I am a drafter by profession.

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The “old style” of drafting and design is still in my blood.

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Instead of the computer aided drafting I use today..

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where all the drawings look the same..

Same font, same north arrows, same leader lines, same everything.  No individuality.

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As a child, I would play with my dad’s drafting tools and I developed my own style.

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In high school and college, we were encouraged to incorporate
our artistic ability into our designs.

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I loved the way each designer had their own style. Some drawings were very clean and simple,
others were quite fancy.

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My first drafting jobs were board work, it took longer to do a drawing and each drafter’s drawings were a work of art.

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Now days it is quicker to produce a large drawing on the computer, but the artistic integrity is gone.

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I guess we really do live in a “big box” society…
everything needs to be quicker, easier and massed produced.

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After hours of following corporate standards, nothing gives me more pleasure than to pull out the mechanical pencil, twirl it around in the old school sharpener and make a fine stroke on vellum paper.

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It is nice to be part of a community of bloggers, friends and locals who are true artists, designers, writers, bakers, photographers, etc., who take pride in their individualism and encourage other artists to do the same.

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In this great big world, we are still individuals..

Have a great day!

xox

Cindy

Galatians 6:4